If You Always Do What You Have Always Done...

You Will Always Get What You Have Always Got.

In visiting the an agricultural education program today, I saw this poster on the wall and was reminded of the several times I have used this quote in a speech, often at an FFA Chapter banquet. 

As I ponder ways in which I have applied this quote to my life, I cannot say that I have come up with many new ways of doing things lately.

I got Nothing.

I got nothing. 


Knowing that I should have something to post, I really got nothing. So I ask myself, what is the purpose of my blog again? "To assist young woman (and perhaps some young men) in spiritual discernment, by sharing my own story." This a direct quote from my True Purpose post mid-January.  Pray with me that I fulfill this purpose. 


But not tonight. 


Persevere through Lent. While I mentioned two weeks again that Lent should be sorrowful, I have a kind friend who asked me to clarify this statement. I'll share now what I shared with him:


We as Catholics see so much of the beauty that comes with suffering, but just as we look at the crucifix and see love, we also see the pain that it took to get there. If you do not find yourself in moments of sorrow from time to time, perhaps you are not offering up enough. I too enjoy the focused time to work on purification of ourselves. 


But if you find yourself struggling, it is opportunity to call up on Christ for help. As Curtis Martin stated, God loves it when we fail. Not because we failed, but because we tried, and we are humbled. 


Last note for this post: St. Peter Chinelle* Faithful is not the same as successful. 


Peace. God is good. 

Lent :)

Happy Ash Wednesday! Isn't this an oxy-moron? Shouldn't we be sorrowful about the season of lent? If we're not at least a bit sorrowful, we are probably dancing around the edge of the desert, not going through the heart of the desert, as suggested by Fr. Bernie.  Challenge yourself.

I'm trying something new this blog post.  As many wonderful thoughts as I have on my mind at this moment, I'm just going to share one cool resource with you that might help you to get the most out of the liturgical season of Lent.  As our youth minister encouraged us, be sure to find one thing to commit to whole-heartedly, not five or six things half-heartedly. If you faulter, do not get down on yourself, but repent and try again. "God loves it when you fail, because you tried, and you are humbled."


While attending the Kansas Catholic College Student Convention (KCCSC) this past weekend, we heard some great speakers who helped to renew our faith and take a second look about how we are growing in our relationship with God and with each other. Todd Lemieux was the keynote Saturday evening. Todd is striving for Christ and has challenged many people to take on the "Sainthood Project".   We should all be striving to become saints. It will most likely cost us more than we are betting on, but it will be worth it. Here is a plan for working on becoming a saint, from Todd. We recieved a preface to these, as he listed them near the end of his time speaking.


1. Be concerned. When you are concerned about something, you work on it. If you find yourself thinking you have things figured out, think again.
2. Be determined. Drive will seperate you.
3. Be motivated (there are many issues you can be motivated about).
4. Be committed to prayer - daily. Not talking to God is like being in a marriage and not talking to your spouse. The more we pray, the more time we have.
5. Be humble. You are not the source of your holiness, God is. 
6. Be specific about how you want to grow spiritually, i.e., 5 minutes of Lectio Divina daily.
7. Be persevering. Post this list and check yourself once a week. Meet with a spiritual director montly. Don't give up.  Pope John Paul II and Mother Theresa persevered.
8. Be sacremental - recieving the Eucharist and Reconciliation often. 


God is good.


 

Drawing A Blank

I'm over due... Over due to share. Over due to write another blog. But, I'm drawing a blank. I have lots of little tidbits rumbling around in my head, but not many that will fit well together. Last time, I wrote about true purpose, and that the true purpose of my blog is to share my experiences of spiritual discernment. Perhaps this is where God wants me to begin.

I thank God that I am not the author of the story of humanity. I could not come up with any thing near as moving, touching, amazing, loving, humbling, (etc.) as our Creator can.  The way in which life happens for each of us, is beyond our control. When we accept this and turn that control over to God (who is really in control already, but waiting for our permission), amazing things will happen. 

Where does my story of discernment begin? I would suppose at birth. At this point, it is all God and my parents. I, Jackie, born and raised on a diversified farm in northern Marion county am the fifth of six kids. If there was ever a black sheep of the family, I would be it. Now I know, better put, I have learned, that we do not grow until we stop comparing ourselves to others. I think this situation is okay. Here are the comparisons: 

Siblings                                                       Me

Blue eyes                                             Brown eyes turned green

Taller than 5'10"                                 Only 5'6"

Born in the first half of the year       Born in the fall

Loads of common sense                     Greater knack for "book sense"

Never left the US (cept for Laura)   Been to Spain and Israel

Vo-Tech or Community College       Straight to K-State

Home bodies (for the most part)     Fair amount of traveling (in KS)

In the real-world a.k.a. working      Still in school

Why do I make this list? (You may be even more unique than I am when compared to your siblings.)  Well, even though I know that God has a unique story that he writes for each and every person, I cannot help but consider my great uncle, Fr. Paul. Yep. He is a priest, currently retired, but a priest all the same. That is his Vocation. Before I continue with Fr. Paul's story, let us establish a point. We are all called to the natural Vocation of wife and mother, or for men, husband and father. Some of us are called to the supernatural Vocation, where we live the natural in a supernatural way. By this I mean religious brothers, sisters, or priests.  Now, I am not sure how theologically sound I am when I say, priests are married to the Church; brothers, I'm not sure, and religious sisters are Brides of Christ. My point is that their Vocation is supernatural. 

Back to Fr. Paul. Someone once asked my grandpa if they always knew that his brother was going to become a priest. The response given was, no, but he was always different. 

He was always different. When I hear this, I immediately begin to think, "So, what is God calling me to?" Instead of freaking out, over time I have come to appreciate the discernment process. If you happened to read any of the link I posted last time, you know that the first few paragraph explain the discernment process, not as exploration of religious orders or diocesan retreats, but a conversation with our Creator. Here are the words used:

"The big problem with discernment, at least as many understand it, is this: it often turns what should be a vital conversation with God, the experience of the breath of God on one’s life, the stirring of our deepest and noblest aspirations, into a cold examination and spiritless calculation of risk, preferences and rewards, and the ceaseless rummaging for signs."   http://www.adorationsisters.org/called.html

Wow. I needed to go back and read that again. No I don't know yet what God is calling me to.  I am asking. But am I listening?

For drawing a blank, God sure has given me some words to share the beginning of my experience. I am ever in aww of our awesome God. 

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us.