Sunday, October 21, 2012

Not Just Responsibility, Rather Fidelity

"We can do no great things. Only small things with great love."
"God has not called me to be successful. He called me to be faithful."

These two quotes by Blessed Teresa of Calcutta are quite common and favorites of many. I'm particularly fond of them.


A great blessings recently bestowed on me was the opportunity to live out the charism of Mother Teresa over the course of five weeks, however poorly I may have done so. As a volunteer, I lived, prayed and worked along side six Missionary Sisters of Charity in their house in St. Louis. The results of which is much interior growth, parts of which I shall share through several blogs.


This morning (Friday), my dad had to grind a batch or two of grain for the livestock at home while I've been assigned to help my brother get started chopping and hauling silage. We're not started yet, as something is amiss with the chopper. That mechanical knowledge is beyond me and Phillip has taken it into his hands to fix it. Regardless, we each have a responsibility this morning. We can go about our tasks grudgingly and grumpy, or we can perform them out of love or fidelity. Love of what or whom? God of course. For it is He who placed each of us in this role this day, and so much more.


Our degree of fidelity is the extent to which we submit to or choose that which we are called to do, and how well we do it. I could consider driving silage truck to be mundane and perform my tasks poorly, by driving recklessly or spilling silage unnecessarily. Or I can choose to do this well, making it a prayer by finding ways to delight in that which I do, recite a rosary or two during my many eight mile round treks from field to trench, fast from snacking or sunflower seeds for an hour within the day, or simply find ways to be charitable to those with whom I work and offer up that which I desire not to do and do it any way.


That is one way it which we can apply fidelity. Another is that of our daily self-maintenance, if you will. God manifests Himself in the flesh and the flesh is the means by which we encounter God. While I could tangent this topic, the direction that I want to go is to care for our bodies, temples of the Holy Spirit, with fidelity.  Fidelity is faithfulness. How faithful are you to the simple tasks of brushing your teeth, washing your face, showering, eating regular healthy meals, doing your laundry? The list could continue.


In a recent post, I mentioned something about having to do things over and over, so we can learn from them. I described the monotony as a duty of love. We'll doing these things and doing these things with love is a means of practicing fidelity (and charity if done for another person). Such things are not just a responsibility. They are a call to fidelity, to faithfulness, to doing small things with great love.


September 5 was/is the feast day of Blessed Teresa of Calcutta. During a mass in her honor, Auxiliary Bishop Rice (St. Louis) spoke especially of Mother Teresa's fidelity to Christ, and His call for her to love Him, for Himself; not for his gifts, the feelings He evoked or the consolations He offered. Love God for God. Blessed Teresa did, as have many, many saints before her.


When I recognize within myself a lack of willingness to brush my teeth or wash my face, I am convicted of my lack of love and my need to grow in and practice fidelity. In particular, last night, after seven plus hours of driving truck and then doing chores, I was reluctant to say my prayers amongst other things. I told Jesus He would have to do them through me for I knew in my weakness I would not be willing. Love never fails.


Thus, I challenge you to see your struggles as opportunities to grow in fidelity; in faithfulness and love.
So much easier said than done.

In Christ.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Who Does This?

From Friday, September 21, 2012

I'm sitting on a bench in the yard of St. Alphonsus Catholic Church, popularly known as "The Rock." It's the private yard of the Redemptorists who live and work for this parish and diocese. The weather is beautiful, though a tiny bit on the chilly side.

The Missionaries of Charity (MCs) with whom I'm staying give me Friday's off. I do my best to get away from the Convent/homeless shelter/soup kitchen that are their facilities, else I would end up helping-working out of boredom or continual interruptions. The space isn't that big. In my third week of being here in St. Louis, I usually opt for a run, coffee, prayer, reading, journaling, and a nap, if possible. As the MCs include rest after lunch as part of their work day, a nap is currently a typical part of my day. Any of this that can be accomplished outside, I do because my outdoor time is limited and minimal compared to the farm.

More than anything, I'm grateful for this experience. I'm exposed to a different world, yet retain my willingness to share myself with an environment that is quick to take from anyone and everyone. Fortunately, my guides have more city-smarts than I do, and keep me safe. I venture out little and seldom on my own, less Fridays. Even then, I catch a ride to a safer part of St. Louis than the area immediately surrounding the convent.

Each day, I participate in the "ora and labora" of the Sisters. They graciously allow me to participate in their prayers, at least those cited in the chapel, and guide me through the tasks of the day, lest I've learned how to do them on my own. I have the title of house-mother of the shelter which serves ladies and children. My apostolate is that of setting out their breakfast in the mornings, cleaning the facilities when they've left for the day, and when not helping with the after school program, serving their evening meal. Laundry here is done by hand and sheets are to be washed once a week. The simplicity of this lifestyle is attractive, as is the infusion of prayer throughout the day. Can you imagine life without a microwave? It's rather pleasant.

This morning, I've browsed through the St. Louis Review, the newspaper of the Archdiocese of St. Louis and the recent edition of TIME magazine. I have yet to venture into The Rock, though I hope to spend much of my afternoon there before joining my friends and cousin for an evening meal. I knew few people in St. Louis. The few I know well are temporary residents, though I've met numerous more permanent residents, most of which volunteer with the MCs weekly or monthly.

Maybe more people than I know have components of this life as their daily routine. Maybe not. I feel incredibly blessed growing in relationship with God and understanding of myself (I hope). Two more weeks.

I wrote out a brief schedule of what I hoped to accomplish today in my planner. It's going totally different than I planned. It's like God's saying, "Don't get in too big of a hurry to start creating your own plans, already. Leave room for me to work in you, through you and with you."

In gratitude, may God Bless you today and always!